Been a while since I did one of these

– Halloween costumes are always complicated. I’m still the little kid that changes her mind every time she thinks of a “new” idea.

– A bad moment as I lay in bed, going to sleep. Affected my dreams all night. Yes, I regret it, it was a horrible time in my life. I hated myself and needed an escape. I was being self destructive. It was a long time ago. It was before. I’m sorry once again.

– The details are planned, but the party could be a little nerve wracking.

– Found another spider today. Grr.

– I’m trying to clean up. Only have had a handful of guests since I got here, so I’m anxious. Hoping it goes well.

– I don’t know what I want for my birthday or what I want to do. I better start thinking.

– I will probably have to spend Thanksgiving alone. This makes me pout, especially considering I haven’t really made a decision towards the holidays. I’m leaning towards a January trip, which can serve as post holiday Christmas and birthday celebration for both my parents.

– My head hurts.