stream of conciousness

I pace. When I’m nervous or excited – talking on the phone or thinking out loud, it doesn’t matter. I pace here, but there’s no good pacing path like there was at the house I grew up in or in some of the places I’ve lived since.

I hear the train running nearby and I think about hopping on it. Except it’s some kind of spur. I don’t even know exactly what that means, but I know it’s not going anywhere I want to go.

I miss my sister. She must be missing me, because she’s emailed and texted twice in the last 24 hours, and that’s pretty rare for her. We hated each other with a passion for some of our childhood, it’s sad that just as we were really becoming friends, I moved away.

I’m debating what to do with the blog. I have been blogging for more than 5 years. I’ve changed and had many incarnations of this blog; the first time I had a different name. When I wanted to go anonymous, I took the posts (but not the comments) moved the blog to a new location in Blogger and gave it a new name. The current title started early last year on Typepad, and I moved here when I was tired of paying them. I can’t give it up, I enjoy it too much. I’ve been thinking about going private temporarily, password protecting just some of the posts or starting another blog completely. Unsure. Thoughts? Feel free to share.

7 thoughts on “stream of conciousness

  1. The blog is you… so whatever you think is best for you to do is all that matters.
    How much of what you need to write will you be protecting? If it’s going to be almost all of it, then it would make sense to just go private for now. As for starting over, that gives you the option of taking some, all, or none of your readers with you.
    Take some time to think it over and see what feels right to you.


  2. i am thinking about you and totally understand the annon thing………I am in Utah .. please let me know if I can help you get here or once you do get here………..
    I have been in your shoes. It makes me tired to think of then.


  3. I’ve been a reader now for quite awhile. You’ve got to do what feels most comfortable for you. If that is going completely private, so be it. But if you are going to allow passwords, I’d love to be considered for the list.


  4. I’d miss your blog. But ultimately, you have to do what is best for you.

    If you do go private, I’d like to be included on the invited guest list.

    Have a great day.



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