My father loved me dearly. I wasn’t the only one. He loved us a lot, maybe sometimes too much. Always putting himself last. Always trying to prove…… Read more
Category: family
Haunting
My dad was really never into Halloween. Mom took us out trick or treating. He didn’t dress up. He did pumpkins, probably out of obligation, and passed…… Read more “Haunting”
happy birthday Dad
In photos, my dad often had this whisper of a smirk on his face. Like he couldn’t wait for you to take the photo because he had…… Read more “happy birthday Dad”
putting it to bed
For a number of years, I ached for a child at the holidays. One year, many years ago, finding out we had no sperm for our eggs…… Read more “putting it to bed”
parental stress
I suppose in some ways, my childlessness is a blessing, as I’m not sandwiched between my parents and my children like my sister is. My siblings are…… Read more “parental stress”
sisters
One of my biggest regrets from my past time on the infertility rollercoaster is keeping things private from my sister. There were a number of reasons we…… Read more “sisters”
future aunthood
Back a few weeks ago, in the middle of another insomnia fueled fugue, I wrote out this letter to my sister, several pages on the legal pad. About…… Read more “future aunthood”