In photos, my dad often had this whisper of a smirk on his face. Like he couldn’t wait for you to take the photo because he had…… Read more “happy birthday Dad”
Category: family
putting it to bed
For a number of years, I ached for a child at the holidays. One year, many years ago, finding out we had no sperm for our eggs…… Read more “putting it to bed”
parental stress
I suppose in some ways, my childlessness is a blessing, as I’m not sandwiched between my parents and my children like my sister is. My siblings are…… Read more “parental stress”
sisters
One of my biggest regrets from my past time on the infertility rollercoaster is keeping things private from my sister. There were a number of reasons we…… Read more “sisters”
future aunthood
Back a few weeks ago, in the middle of another insomnia fueled fugue, I wrote out this letter to my sister, several pages on the legal pad. About…… Read more “future aunthood”
holiday feeling
Love is overwhelming. It is both what tethers me and what causes me to ascend. I feel lost. I have too many places I call home. Where…… Read more “holiday feeling”
silent screaming
I woke this morning, clasping my hand to my throat. Feeling hoarse, as though I had been screaming all night. In my dream, I was. I was…… Read more “silent screaming”
