The intensity with which I miss him surprises me, much like so many other pieces of whatever this is. Confusing and overwhelming, I am unable to explain…… Read more “absence”

I didn’t write a post last year on the holiday. It was a painful one, but I felt like I’ve said everything I have to say until…… Read more “another mother day”

There’s a spot near my house, where you can park and see some of the valley lights, the night sky illuminated by traffic signals and streetlamps. Depending…… Read more “watching airplanes”

do you know that every time we hung up, I would almost whisper “I love you”, as if I couldn’t possibly keep it in any longer? like…… Read more “pent up”

Wandering my house, bare feet on the cold travertine floor of my kitchen; I could put on socks or slippers, I could turn up the heat, but…… Read more “fine”

The impending disappointment is palpable in almost every one of our conversations. Sometimes I want to push, and I usually regret it when I do. Other times,…… Read more “plaintive”