intact

I wonder if I can escape with my heart intact.

I’ve broken my silence by finally sharing the pain
I’ve broken my promise to myself
I’ve broken my wedding vows

I won’t let this break me.  He can reject me.  He can turn away.  He can ignore me, placate me and neglect me.  I will fight.  I will not break down and be quiet.

I won’t stop trying until I have to.  I will give it what I can, in case somehow, some way, I can reach him.

And I won’t let his silence break my heart.
I won’t let his lack of care break my heart.
I won’t let his disregard for my feelings break my heart.

I won’t let my disappointment break my heart.
I won’t let my loneliness break my heart.

I won’t let this marriage break me, I’ll break it up first.

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