The situation with them is odd. They know, but they don’t. If they make a comment about when I have kids, I deflect it or roll my eyes or change the subject.

I worked a RESOLVE event this weekend. My mother said, “well, I know you don’t know whether or not you’ll have children for sure, but you should just tell people at RESOLVE that while parenthood is a great source of joy it’s also a great source of sorrow”. She’s not sure she’d have done it all the same if she could go back in time.

O – Kay.

Well, regardless of the fact that it’s an insult to me as one of her children, that bothered me. It’s like a billionaire saying he’d rather go back and be poor (knowing no one will be taking him back in time). I think it’s easy to say that when your kids are driving you crazy, but I can’t believe too many parents really mean it. I don’t know where I’m going with that, but I needed to share.

Anyway. Survival is one of the strongest instincts a person has. I find it ironic that maternal instincts can be just as strong. I never thought I would live my life just surviving through events.

I just want to make it to a point where I do more than just exist, more than just survive.